‘I was a pill-popper’: Aussie songstress Sia reveals new details of her battle with drug and alcohol addiction and depression — (Daily Mail Australia)

SSRI Ed note: Singer diagnosed as bi-polar almost commits suicide, survives, recovers and stops taking drugs.

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Daily Mail Australia

By Andrea Magrath and Bianca Soldani for Daily Mail Australia

Published: 22:31 GMT, 11 February 2015 | Updated: 04:18 GMT, 12 February 2015

Her battle with addiction and depression while struggling with the pressures of fame has been well documented recently following some frank interviews.

And now Australian songstress Sia Furler has revealed further details of the vices she turned to in her darker days, and her path to sobriety thereafter.

‘I was a pill-popper,’ the Chandelier hitmaker, 39, admitted to OK! magazine, naming alcohol abuse as another habit.

Dark past: Sia has discussed her former addiction to drugs and alcohol in a new interview, admitting to being a ‘pill-popper’

Her darkest point came in 2010, when Sia wrote a suicide note and prepared to end her own life, until a timely phone call from a friend caused her to reconsider.

‘There was a small voice [in me] that wanted to live,’ she told OK! magazine.

‘And the only thing I knew how to do was to call someone who was also in the program, and then I just did what I was told and I’m still sober now, so I am really grateful. I’d look at other people and think, “They look fine and happy; they even have families and have kids, how do they do it? They seem to be enjoying this ride called life.”‘

Sia made headlines with her unusual antics at the Grammy awards last week, where she hid her face in a platinum wig and sang with her back turned to the audience.

Her refusal to promote her latest album, posing for magazine covers with a paper bag over her head, and inviting high-profile friends, including Lena Denham and Kristen Wiig to join her onstage during performances appear to only attract more attention for the camera-shy singer-songwriter.

Trappings of fame: The Aussie songstress, pictured at the Grammy awards last week, is now sober and enjoying remarkable success professionally, but prefers to shun the spotlight.

But it is antics such as these that perhaps allow the Adelaide-born star to deal with the unwanted spotlight that comes with a chart-topping song, as well as turning to charitable causes such as dog rescue, which Sia says is part of her recovery program.

She also takes solace in a higher power she dubs ‘Whatever dude’, which she has tattooed on her hand.

With her recovery on track, the life she once saw others enjoying that seemed unattainable appears to be coming together for Sia. She married documentary maker Erik Anders Lang last year, and says she dreams of a baby.

Sia has previously spoken of her discomfort with fame. ‘It’s horrible, I just wanted to have a private life,’ She told the New York Times last year.


Revelations: Sia discussed her past addictions this week with OK! magazine

‘Once, as my friend was telling me they had cancer, someone came up and asked, in the middle of the conversation, if they could take a photograph with me.’

The darkest point in 2010 saw the songstress come dangerously close to ending her life. She went so far as to leave instructions and pen a suicide note as she considered taking a concoction of narcotics.

Uncomfortable in the spotlight, the singer relied on alcohol to get her through live shows whilst on her US tour and later became addicted to antidepressants and pain medication including Xanax and OxyContin, after being diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

Sadly, her battle with alcoholism and depression intensified after her boyfriend was hit by a taxi driver and killed just days before she was due to visit him in London.

Two months before her September suicide attempt, Sia phoned her drug dealer and ‘ordered “two of everything”, except meth and heroin’.

Planning to check into a cheap hotel, she left instructions for her dog walker and the hotel manager, writing: ‘I’ve killed myself and I don’t want you to have to suffer seeing my dead body.’

Wallflower: The Chandelier hitmaker prefers to stay in the background when performing, inviting friends like Kristen Wiig (left) onstage to attract attention away from her.

A timely call from a friend prompted a re-evaluation and Sia decided to enroll in a 12-step recovery program and take a break from her solo career.

Sia only returned to the spotlight in 2014 after working exclusively as a songwriter and released her sixth studio album 1000 Forms Of Fear, to much critical acclaim in July.

Her first solo project since 2010, the debut single Chandelier, rocketed to the top of the US charts and has been performed by the singer on a host of talk shows and awards ceremonies including most recently, at the Grammys.

The music video, that features Dance Moms star Maddie Ziegler, has garnered an incredible 500 million views on Vevo and won her a string of nominations at the MTV VMAs, EMAs, ARIAs and Grammys.

Gone bananas! Sia superimposed a bunch of bananas over her face in behind-the-scenes footage from the making of her Elastic Heart video

Her recently released follow up hit Elastic Heart, has caused just as much of a stir, with the music video again featuring Maddie who teams up with a shirtless Shia LaBeouf, 28, to wrestle in a cage.

She was forced to address the backlash over pedophilia concerns and said on Twitter in January:

‘I anticipated some ‘pedophelia!!!’ Cries for this video. All I can say is Maddie and Shia are two of the only actors I felt could play these two warring ‘Sia’ self states.

‘I apologize to those who feel triggered by Elastic Heart, my intention was to create some emotional content, not to upset anybody.’

Following it’s release on January 7, the controversial clip has attracted in excess of 100 million views on YouTube.

Born to parents Phil Colson and Loene Furler from rockabilly band The Soda Jerx, creativity is in Sia’s blood and she now says she hopes to focus her attention on creating visual art – such as her music videos and striking live performances – to accompany her already renowned singing and songwriting.

The performer, who now has a reported net worth of AUD$20 million, first rose to notoriety as a songwriter, penning hits including Rhianna’s Diamonds, Beyonce’s Pretty Hurts, Britney Spears’ Perfume and Flo Rida’s Wild Ones. Nee

‘She doesn’t want to be famous’:She appeared on the cover of Billboard magazine in 2013 with a brown paper bag over her head, and says she often doesn’t go out for fear of being recognised.

She also co-wrote and featured on David Guetta’s mammoth hit Titanium, which she says was released without her knowledge.

The hitmaker had recorded her own version of the song intended only as a guide for the female vocalist chosen for the part, but producers liked it so much they released it to the public in a move Sia now confesses was great for her career.

Much prior to that, the Australian made a cameo appearance as a wedding singer on popular soap Home And Away.

At the time, the ARIA winner was just 22 and only had her debut album Only See, under her belt.

She was featured standing on the sand at the iconic Palm Beach, and sang her single How To Breathe, which she had written for the show.

More recently, Sia has collaborated with fellow Australian Kylie Minogue on her new album Kiss Me Once.