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By Issy Sampson
The former TOWIE star went on TV to talk about her overdose last month, and told Holly and Phil she felt “lost”
Maria Fowler was on This Morning talking about her suicide attempt two weeks ago, and was very honest with Holly Willoughby and Philip Schofield, telling them that she felt “lost” and “in a dark place” when she took an overdose.
Maria spoke about her time on TOWIE and how being in a new relationship with James Morgan and stopping her anti-depressants affected her recently. While crying, she said: “I went back into depression quite badly. I wasn’t on medication at all, although I had the warning signs and I should’ve gone back on. I kind of thought that this is upsetting me and this is upsetting me and that’s why I feel like this because of those situations and not remembering that its an illness that I’ve got and that’s what making me not be able to cope.”
Maria added, “I felt OK that morning and thought that maybe I’m over reacting [but] me and my partner at the time were going through a rough patch, had an argument, and I felt like I didn’t want to die, but I didn’t want to live. I just wanted it to stop. I was rock bottom… I did take pain killers and I was on my own. I was so lost. A really dark place.”
After her hospital experience, talking about how she is feeling now, Maria said, “I’m back on anti depressants and I’m just putting my head into this… its my way of coping with it. There is something there that isn’t going to go away really.”
She added, “I have had a lot of positive feedback on Twitter, but also negative feedback saying I’m doing it for attention – but its difficult and this [mental health] isn’t something to be mocked.”
“There’s been a lot of interest in my story and I feel its my duty to speak and say what’s happened, raise awareness and try to turn in into a positive… that’s my way of dealing with it.”
Earlier today, Maria tweeted she was meeting The Samaritans, and yesterday, she moved some of her things back to London after staying with her mum in Derby.
She didn’t mention her boyfriend James on This Morning, leaving the mystery of ‘have they broken up’ still unsolved.